Tuesday, May 26, 2009

cozying up to it~

so much has kept me busy: i graduated with my BA, am moving on towards medicine, have been working like crazy---especially for our little trip to seattle this week (anyone up there wanna give me some fun ideas?) and have just been enjoying gardening, reading and relaxing.

      it's amazing how taking my mind off my BG a bit has worked wonders for it!  i think some of it is that i've finally 'plateaued' with it.  not like i'm never going to struggle again, i just mean it's so weird how my 30 day averages seem to have just come down on their own because i slid off on logging every number, every dose.  and i have to say, i haven't had too many bad numbers as a result.  honestly though, i 've been lucky throughout this whole first-year-after-diagnosis; i bounced back and in control relatively quickly.  but you all know the worrying that comes with dealing with t1 everyday...it can really begin to consume you if you're not careful.  sigh. the fine line between tight control and being OCD about it, eh? lol. 
      guess i'm just saying that it's great to finally relax a bit.  it's here to stay, but i'm healthier, more self-aware, more reflective in such a balanced way than i've ever been in my life.  so strange!  i can hardly describe it at times.  it's like a strange blessing that arrived in an old beat up basket.  instead of making me into a basket case though, i feel like it's turned into a beautiful little gift; a bit of that 'insider info' we all wish we could have in life sometimes.  i think i've got some now and i'm at peace more than i've ever been. 


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