i forgot to tell you all:
i'm going to get a pump!
i know, i know. i was soooooooo anti-pump. then again, give me a break. i've only had type 1 since 2008. things take a while to get used to! i have to say though, i think it was good that i really "learned" this disease by way of having to go through all the drawing-up/self-injecting/often spaced out into small multiple injections for certain [*ah-hem*] annoying foods. i really do understand more than i think i would have had i rushed into getting the pump too soon after diagnosis. it seems about a year or so later is a good time-frame to start shoppin'. as i said in that earlier post, it wasn't about vanity. it was deeper than that. as my type 1 friend alayna said, "it's ok in the end. but it's certainly weird to get used to wearing your pancreas on your britches!" ha!
so early this year i obsessively kept mulling over the pros and cons and really just kept getting stuck emotionally in the whole OHMYGODICAN'THAVESOMETHINGATTACHEDTOME issue.
i can't tell you that anything particularly huge came over me, but i can say that this is just my nature. i'm a very gradual girl. i like to read, research, talk to people, think through it myself. look at lots of pictures, LOL. i hate being pushed into things. i'm definitely a think-for-yourself kind of person. god, and i am sooooooo insulin-sensitive. this one-shot-deal that lantus offers is not exercise friendly at all. it is getting really, really old.
it also helped to start researching pregnancy and type 1 heavily and realizing there was no way in hell i was gonna be able to have the control i currently have with injections during a pregnancy with injections. trust me. after reading all of the literature and research, it's crazy to try and manage type 1 with MDIs when we have pump technology with such minute, accurate dosing and wave patterns. i was like, what the hell was i caught up on?!
so i'm 98% positive i'm getting the animas ping. it seems to fit me the best and its little nuances are what are 'selling' me on it. although, i must say, it's been a tough pull between medtronic and animas. they both really seem to be great companies from what i keep hearing from 'pumpers'.
*i'd love to hear from you all about your pumps, how they changed your life, and what you like and don't like.
so i just wanted to put it out there that i'm super excited about it. i really am! it makes me so hopeful for my [possible] future as a healthy type 1 mama.
and guess what? because i'm a loud, silly, unabashedly au naturale type 1 gal:
i'm gonna get the green one.