this transition to the pump is overwhelming me. i am doing basal testing but ever since a couple of days ago, i've had mostly high BGs. we're talking even a 370. painful. my control was so tight before on mdi's. of course, i experienced more hypoglycemia due to stacking, so maybe i need to stop whining for a while until this all gets worked out.
i just wish i knew what to do. all i can do is get the basal rates down for now, i know. i need to stay focused on that, because surely it isn't the bolus i did for salad. but i worry that the whole 'the site can affect the absorption' thing people talk about is at fault here. god, i hope not. i only have so much subq fat. i'm a really small gal, so it's not like i can use the little bit of fat in my lower abdomen every.three.days. i have to go upwards a bit and i'm also using the bit by my hips (commonly known as love handles, of which i have none, LOL.) is the absorption really that different?
and man, am i hungry! this testing-requiring-fasting stuff is really hard when you hear your tummy growling. i can rarely go four hours without eating. boo.
i'm seeing my endo tomorrow, maybe we can just up the basal rate immediately due to these clearly out of control highs. i can barely stand it. sigh. the perfectionist in me.
on a positive note, matthew pointed out to me how well i adapt to things. it's only been a year and a half, and despite the (literal) blood, sweat and tears, i always keep on. i'm not afraid of change, that's for sure. at this point in my life especially, nothing shocks me anymore, LOL. much still surprises me; disappointment mixed with a whole lot of joy.
i also have two beautiful classical songs i downloaded that have harps and accordians and pianos and violins. they hint of sadness and hope intertwined as perfectly as i feel right now.
think i'll just keep it on repeat.